Q. I don’t that feel (AA or NA) works for me; any suggestions?
Rather than answering the question directly, let me ask you a few questions. You only have to answer them for yourself. What your reply to me might be is completely immaterial.
1. Did you go to a meeting every day, or did you find excuses to stay away?
2. Did you talk to people, or did you arrive late and leave early, avoiding contact?
3. Did you sit up front and pay attention, or did you sit in the back and keep track of all the things in the meeting that you didn’t approve of?
4. Did you share — at least your name — or did you keep quiet and try to look cool so people wouldn’t know you were a newcomer?
5. Did you get a Big Book or Basic Text (and read it)?
6. Did you get a sponsor?
7. Did you talk to your sponsor and get to know him or her?
8. Did you do any work on the Steps?
9. Did you become involved with service: putting away chairs, making coffee, cleaning up, greeting people (especially other newcomers) to make them feel at home?
10. Did you get to know people who would include you in their activities outside of meetings, like going for coffee, picnics, and the many other things that program people to do have fun?
11. Did you keep coming back, even when you didn’t feel like it?
12. Did you want to believe the group could help, or did you look for things that were wrong with it — things to be offended by; reasons to disapprove?
The program won’t work for you — unless you work for it. If you’ll think about your answers, you’ll discover the suggestions.